By: lukesarmy@ymail.com
18/06/2009
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I have to do whatever I can for Luke. I always did and I always will. Where I failed was not being able to be thought of as a good father by DoCS. Everyone could see how much I loved Luke and that he was better off with me. By fighting for justice for Luke I still have him in my life. I don't know how I could go on without living my life for him.
I have generated over 10000 hits on Luke's various sites in the last week. Not all of them are positive and some just make me cry. I know I must accept responsibility for the death of Luke in some way. But...they made it impossible for me to get him back.
The last words I said to Luke....
LOOK AT ME LUKE. (He looked me straight in the eye as I continued.)
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE WILL EVER LOVE YOU LUKE. I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LUKE. I AM TRYING TO GET YOU BACK THEY JUST WONT GIVE YOU BACK.
I kissed him and tried to act happy so as not to upset him, but I was worried sick throughout the whole visit about him going back to that house, especially with the scratches on his face. When I mentioned the scratches to the visit supervisor and informed her he was always bruised and scratched, even burnt, she told me he had scratched his own face, that is what his foster carer had told her.
My suspicion is the old lady let them all abuse my little baby and turned a blind eye to it. Luke drove off in the back of the child safety car and I collapsed to the ground in front of the playground and cried and cried and cried.
I kept telling people I knew I was never going to see him again. I was standing on the shore and looking out to sea. He was in a boat drifting further and further out to see screaming "DADDY, DADDY."
I did a drawing for him but I was telling people "I know I am never going to get to give it to him."
That is how strong the bond was between me and Luke. I cried that whole week til I got the call that Luke was in intensive care.
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By: frenchyjen70
18/06/2009
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| very sad. i'm sorry for your loss. |
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By: mag.tide
19/06/2009
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http://lukesarmy.com/node/139
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RIP :(
Hopefully there was some help from DiD's in QLD to help the father through his pain.
Life destroying Anti-Male decisions by the Family Court. |
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By: aussiearisen
19/06/2009
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| The present system of ego driven tin Gods is rotten to the core. |
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By: frenchyjen70
19/06/2009
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I know I must accept responsibility for the death of Luke in some way. But...they made it impossible for me to get him back.
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can i ask why he was taken from you? if that's too personal, don't answer... |
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By: reidsays
19/06/2009
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Magtide...."Life destroying Anti-Male decisions by the Family Court."
Since I am female and included in my angst against the Family Court....could that please be termed...
ANTI-PARENTAL decisions!!!!
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By: monkey_pie1
25/06/2009
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Hopefully there was some help from DiD's in QLD to help the father through his pain.
Life destroying Anti-Male decisions by the Family Court. - mag
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Mag - Yes, he was placed in a wrong, wrong place for "care". It's a pretty blind attitude to assume that the child was placed in care because of an "anti-male" sentiment, though.
He was obviously placed in foster care for a reason, as his father mentioned in the original post.
If a child is harmed in foster care, it does not automatically negate that the bilogical parents are not able to look after their children properly at the time that it happened. It simply means that somebody totally inappropriate was approved to look after children - which is something the Dept of Communities and DOCS are responsible for, not the Family Court.
In saying that, I can't even begin to imagine the frustration of your child being in foster care and knowing they're being abused - and not being able to do a thing about it.
Very sorry for your loss - Luke's army, I wouldn't wish the pain you would be going through on anyone. |
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